Hi Everyone!
Long time no blogging! I thought i'd give a quick update on how i've been doing since i got discharged from CAMHS.
I haven't been doing great. Unfortunately i reached crisis point and tried to end my life a few times. I was then given the option of seeing the home treatment team or get admitted into a psychiatric hospital - i chose the home treatment team. There are so many factors that contributed to my crises and one of them was being rejected from the adult mental health services. I was left feeling abandoned and after a while i gave up on seeking help and wanted to end my life so that i could end the PTSD symptoms and hallucinations.
Initially, my first impressions of the HTT was that i thought they were great because i was treated as unique and not as a 'text book case'. They took me seriously and did listen to my problems so that's a positive. However, my issue was that i had to meet different people everyday and had to repeat my story a lot. They kept asking me to measure my mood and suicidal feelings on a scale of 1-10, which i thought was ridiculous as it cannot be measured.
I was also confused because i kept getting different opinions on diagnosis. One doctor said i had depression, ptsd and psychosis. The other doctor said i had depression, borderline traits and pseudo halucinations. It was confusing and i'm not that bothered with diagnosis as it will probably keep changing. I was suggested medication - sertraline and quetiapine, however i refused them.
Overall, it was an experience. It wasn't entirely negative but that service wasn't for me and i'm so glad i've been discharged from their care. Right now i need to change GP and get re-referred to a mental health service. Fingers crossed my referral doesn't get rejected again!
